God's grace.

As I got ready for work the other day, exhausted from the previous night's games of tag-team wakefullness the kids were playing, I was thinking of how I'd ever get the energy to someday expand our family further. Two kids felt like a handful, how could I ever handle more? Then my mind drifted to Joseph's smile he had flashed me in the middle of the night and Bella's belly laugh from cracking herself up in her crib...and then, it didn't seem like such a bad idea (in the future).

I started thinking of how God always seemed to work things out. Bella had started phasing her daily nap out recently and if I had only had one child this would have put a serious cramp in my daily desire for serenity, but since Joseph had overlapped his awake time during her naps it had eased me into giving up that personal time. A blessing in disguise. Then I thought to when Joseph was first born and how he used to sleep often; giving me much needed one on one time with Bella. How overwhelming would it be if newborns came out acting like toddlers? No one would ever have children. God only gives us enough grace for today. I'm sure that when the time comes to expand the family further he will grace us with the desire and energy we need. Until then, I will continue to enjoy life's ups and downs with my two.